Randomness

I woke up today morning in a muddled state.

Last night, I dreamt about climbing a maze of stairs and finally walking my way out of a large room.  

These strange dreams annoy me.

I looked at the clock; it was still 6:55 AM. I had set the alarm for 7:40 AM.

I could not recall what time did I sleep yesterday.

I felt irritated for waking up early & went off to sleep again.

This time the alarm rang again at 8:00 AM and rather than putting it on snooze, I quickly got off the bed.

Zulfi was getting ready for work. He generally gets up early and leaves for work almost an hour before me. I waited for him to come and say goodbye.

I could hear the chit-chat of my in-laws in the living room.

The maid had still not arrived, I called her but her phone was switched-off.

I called her sister and told her that if she does not come today, I will fire her.

I hanged the phone & thought to myself that I have been telling her this for the last so many months.

If I were to rate my ‘state of mind’ on a scale of 1 to 10, I would be a pathetic 4 today. I was atleast a 7 or 8 yesterday.

What really changed today? I do not know.

Every so often I am happy or not-so-happy without any rhyme or reason.

I left for work at 9:00 AM.

I strolled for almost a kilometre before catching a rick and travelling to office which is a stone’s throw from home.

As I was travelling to office, I looked at the sky. It looked so pretty with its amazing hues. God is an amazing painter!

I reached office and was welcomed by so many smiling faces.

Office is generally bustling with energy and no matter how you feel inside, you feel great at office.

I sat on the chair and looked at my workstation. This is my canvas, I thought to myself and I am going to create a masterpiece.

My ‘state of mind’ was a 7 again!

The Rose in My Balcony

A few months back, I bought a tiny rose plant from a nearby nursery. The plant looked really nice with blooming white flowers embellishing its exterior. I ordered a large ceramic pot to plant it. My domestic help who is deft in all these jobs planted it with great care. We then waited for it to grow & bloom.

However, as days passed by the plant started to wither. Its leaves started wilting & flowers started drooping. A few friends who I believe have a real flair for gardening said that it will take time but will eventually grow. A few weeks went by & I continued to water it every morning in the hope that a beautiful English rose plant will ornate my balcony one day. However, even after two months there was no sign of life in the plant. Alas! We had to declare it dead.

 
A few months later, I visited the nursery again & chanced upon the idea of buying another rose plant. I had that empty pot in my balcony & had been toying with the idea of growing a rose plant in my house since a long time. I was warned by my domestic help that it might still not grow this time. However, I still bought the plant & planted it with definite scepticism. I was convinced that it required extraordinary care to grow an English rose.
 

Days passed by and I continued watering the plant every day. Every passing day strengthened the confidence in me that this plant might just live. Finally after two weeks we saw new red leaves sprouting on the tender stem. And few days later a tiny bud appeared on the plant. The bud gradually matured into a beautiful pink English rose. A few days later another bud appeared and it also blossomed into a beautiful rose. Thus finally I could realize my wish of growing a beautiful English rose plant in my balcony.

 

The entire incident made me marvel at the amount of randomness in our lives and in this universe. I realized that things every so often happen or do not happen without any underlying reason and there is a large element of fluke in everything we do. Mathematics has defined this randomness through probability and its complicated equations. However, what bothers me is that so many wonderful things in this world would have been forsaken by seeing others fail. For instance, if that second rose plant would not have grown, I would have definitely given up.  

Therefore sometimes in life it is not about changing priorities and giving up, just trying one more time can make all the difference!

 

Keep walkingJ

 

 

 

Welcome!

Well! I already own quite a few blogs which are inactive since a long time.

Each blog defines a phase of my life.

My first blog on Sulekha was my punching bag during my college days.

Then came ‘meravalapink’ on BlogSpot which used to be my drawing board as I was trying to kick-start my career as a marketer.

Also I had a blog titled ‘Flux’ on BlogSpot which was a collection of my random musings during my school & college days.

So why do I start again?

Well it has been quite some time since I have penned down my thoughts. To be precise, it has been almost 4 years since I have written anything.

And I have realized that scribing my reflections just makes me happy!

So here I am creating one more blog for myself.

This is my way of seeking nirvana for my soul!

You are welcome to read itJ